Gratitude

So basically, ALL throughout the week I think of ALL these things that I TOTALLY want to tell y'all, because they're either super spiritual, or super funny, or whatever. But then, without fail. When P-day comes around and I sit in front of the computer, I ALWAYS forget what it was that I was going to say, even if I bring my journal, I FORGET that I HAVE my journal and it's just really bad. 

Oh well, so what I DO remember is totally having a mental breakdown. Not the crying, running nose, "I want to go home", kind of breakdown, but the "what is my purpose? I'm a terrible missionary. I never get anything done! I think I have ADD along with Narcolepsy, my brain is SO retarded! I'm a terrible trainer! I'm not being exactly obedient! I feel like I'm always letting someone down! Because of my laziness people aren't receiving the gospel!" you know, THAT kind of break down.

But it was totally fine because I just paced back and forth in our kitchen, venting to my roommate and then vented to the senior couple (the Moultries, SO AMAZING) and just complained about all my problems. But that's totally good. Life is good. Although it makes life easier when while you're venting, people are just throwing in compliments at you when you take a breath. Seriously, I'm so grateful for my companion and the Moultries, they're so great!

And something that I learned what that my purpose can be broken down into day by day accomplishments. Like, me answering someone's life-long question. Or me giving away a Book of Mormon  Or me making a grumpy person smile, I don't know, just good things. But when you accomplish those things, you have that sense of fulfillment because you achieved your purpose. And then I related that to those who struggle with having that close relationship with Christ. Just accomplish one thing a day. Don't over extend yourself. It's ok to not take multiple leaps, but instead take small steps. it's fine! Life is good. Life is always good when you decide that life is good. 

So now that I sound like a weird peace, love and happiness hippie, I'm gonna end my e-mail, but I love you guys and I hope everyone's doing great! Work hard! Pray always! Love ya!

Sister Bradley